2020 was quite a year for us all. It threw different things at us. 2020 tried it fam! First, for the world at large, it was the pandemic that changed the world as we know it, changed the way we work, changed the way we interact with each other; whoever thought that there would come a time where everyone would be required to do a COVID test before and after visiting a country or even quarantine for 14 days; this has placed a huge strain on traveling for us all.
Then the #EndSars movement started in Nigeria, it stirred our hearts with so much hope and pride, our eyes sparkled with excitement, our minds filled with the possibilities of ‘what ifs’- what if this movement changes everything, what if we eventually had a Nigeria where things actually worked, what if this would make our leaders more accountable to us and the government begins to actually give a hoot about the wellbeing of the people, just what if … but before we could relish those thoughts and fantasies, the government snatched that hope right from our hearts, it felt like the rug was suddenly pulled from under our feet, it felt like we were thrown under the bus, all the efforts came undone like a loosely tied scarf – the shock, the pain, the heartbreak, the losses we all suffered.
Personally, the year challenged me, I stepped out of my comfort zone, I experienced a new culture and people. It was exciting and nerve-racking at different times. I struggled, I learned, some days I felt small, other days I was encouraged by my progress, heck, some days I felt like packing my bags and running away from it, haha, thankfully that didn’t happen I showed up every day, regardless of how I felt. I am so thankful. Although it didn’t exactly turn out as I had hoped, I feel like I took a huge leap and landed on my back, but thinking about it, I wouldn’t have it any other way, I would rather walk the difficult and uncertain path, than asking myself in 5-10 years from now why I didn’t take the leap.
Bruhhhh, I made tons of applications this year and I received tons of rejection emails (love letters as I’d like to call them), with all the love letters I’ve received, my mailbox is looking so good! at least that’s the way I want to look at it now. I won’t even lie to you, e pain me o, I felt like I wasn’t good enough. But, It has changed the way I look at things anyway, one thing’s for certain, I’ll keep working on being a much better version of myself, I’ll keep pushing, keep sending out applications, the love letters can keep coming, they don’t bother me anymore.
Some of the things that I’ve learned to appreciate this period are my friends and family, it’s so important that you have people who support and cheer you on especially when you don’t feel like getting out of bed. I’m thankful to be blessed with the most supportive family ever, my super amazing flatmates, and my friends, I could call names but let’s not go there! e no go finish, the ones who cooked for me, prayed with me and for me, the ones who are always gassing me up, even me I no de too believe them like that. I feel like I received the most gifts this year than ever (PS. I need this energy to continue😭) We all need people who love and care for us, I am humbled to have such people in my life.
Also, I hope you know that the fact that you’re struggling with something doesn’t mean that you’ve failed at it. I hope you know that the fact that it didn’t go the way you wanted doesn’t mean that it’s the end of the world, this is to me as much as it is to you. As long as you’re making efforts to get better, it will pay off eventually, don’t be too hard on yourself, keep going, like i always say – one day at a time.
I’d also like to add this – try to rest and enjoy life, this life na one. I feel like I was constantly in pursuit of something or trying to do something and while that’s a good thing, there should be a balance. Stop comparing your little wins to someone else’s big wins. Pat yourself on the back more, celebrate your little wins and victories, and live, Rome wasn’t built in a day. PS. problem no de finish, try to de enjoy life. That’s why I have decided to be chopping life – yes, that’s my new year’s resolution. Please come and join me on my new mission of #choplife, because I can’t come and kee myself.
In all, it was a good year for me, blessed with new friendships, had some new achievements, and experienced growth. I’m super thankful.
Cheers to a new year of taking chances, shooting shots, and showing up, we go big or we go home! Remember, one day at a time, and yes in Jessica’s voice you are not regular white rice, you are premium jollof rice with peppered chicken and Chapman, read that again and don’t forget, yes, you’re a big deal!
Happy new year fam!💖
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